The story goes something like this;

On the way to the YWAM base, I stopped off at a park to go rollerblading. I, of course, stashed my computer in the back of my car so little theiving trouble makers wouldn't see it. When I was done blading and returned to my car, I saw a police car parked right behind it. At almost the same time I noticed someone had smashed in my driver side window. Glass was everywhere.

I can't really explain how I felt at that moment. I can't quite process it yet. A shock of dismay, a severe sinking feeling, a wave of disbelief. My computer was gone of course, and that almost rendered me a twitching mass of horrified flesh. Everything... gone... years and years of stories, journals, photos, poems. Of course I have a back up... and of course it was in the computer bag with my computer.

But it could have been worse. The thieves took a bag full of books and left my purse with my wallet, cell phone and ID in it. I felt mildly victorious. They mistook my book bag for my purse. Ha.

They could have taken the car. Or they could have taken my life. It could have been worse.....

Still, I can't tell you how devistated I feel. The first night after it happened I couldn't sleep. I was awake for hours.

But in the midst of this awefulness I encourage myself by saying, It's a time for new beginnings, a time to let the old diminish and pass away and start afresh. A time for new stories, new memories, new photos. A time for God to reveal himself in new ways. A time for me to grow stronger, to know what loss feels like so I know how precious it is to have.

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On different note, I'm in Colorado right now, at a week long YWAM conference. Internet access will probably be sporatic, as will my phone.... and I'm having problems accessing my email. I changed all the passwords but I'm wondering if the thieves could have broken in. It would have been easy. Please pray for me.