The List of Doom

I'm not your regular ol' "normal" person, but you probably know that. Here's another weird fact to add to all those other weird facts about me.

Crossing things off to-do lists does not give me much needed stress relief.

Weird. 

I've come to realize that to-do lists by their very existence, crossed off or not, causes me stress. I'm not entirely sure why.

Maybe I don't know how to celebrate my successes?
Maybe I'm so free-spirited that the idea of even having a list makes me feel constrained and boxed in?
Maybe I know I'll forget to put something on the list so my brain is constantly scanning for that forgotten item.... and that's exhausting.

I can usually remember 95% of whatever it is I'm supposed to do, but that last 5% will always fall through the cracks. Always. And it's not me being lazy. It's me being me... forgetful, not entirely aware, absorbed in other more exciting things, dreaming about new adventure, living in denial, being intimidated by the thing I'm supposed to do because I don't know how to do it or where to go for help (aka doing my taxes).

Unfortunately it's part of my personality, a weakness that I need to be aware of and therefore try to manage around it. Working harder, trying harder, only makes me stress out more. And stress is a form of worry and that's not okay. So I need to figure out how to work within my visionary strengths, but not forget the details.

Please don't give me detailed stuff to do. I will mess it up and you will be disappointed.

However, I could use a personal assistant. 

Anyone?