living dreams

there's a part of who i am
that's forgotten who i am
life has taken on a life of it's own
and i don't know where it's going
or how to get off

i don't think i want to get off
but it's the thought...
life is out of control
spinning wildly down a course
i feel like was set out
the moment i was born

all i can do is hold on
and scream sometimes
and laugh other times
and the whipping wind makes tears run down my face

life is brilliantly out of control
amazingly adventurous
but sometimes i forget who i am
all i can see and hear
is this roller coaster

sometimes i forget to breathe
i forget to take hold of those moments
when i'm slowly climbing up a hill
when life is a bit more manageable,
but all i can do is anticipate
another crazy downhill swoop

i came upon a thought
one of those thoughts that boarder on epiphany
because the reality of it strikes deeply
and everything shifts slightly to the side

i realized that God is in control
really in control
and that i don't have to compete with the world
i don't have to have a PhD
i don't need to have the smartest and brightest
working with me
what i really need
what i have to have
what needs to be a requirement like no other
is that i and we depend on God like no other
that we sit in quiet confidence at his feet
listening to his voice

he will teach us what to say
he will show us where to go
he will lead us in the best way

that's the bottom line
to have a ridiculous faith
that the world does not understand
nor comprehend

i do not compete with the world
because i'm not of this world
i am of heaven
a child of God

the world will be baffled by what they see
and i can't wait