I can't tell you how many people have told me that since I'm not part of a mission organization they or their church can't support me. It's probably the largest obstacle I have in my life at the moment. So what if I told you I found an organization who would help me?

I can't really let myself get excited about it because it doesn't seem possible and it's not final yet anyway. I've been let down a few too many times by organizations who want to help, say all the right things, but in the end are unable too. But this, this seems possible.

I'm going to join YWAM.

I went to a Salem YWAM base last week to talk to them and left amazingly encouraged. They were delighted with the possibility of working with me and they have the organizational structure to work with ministries like mine. In fact, the match seemed perfect. They would allow me to pursue my ministry as I see fit but they would provide basic spiritual, emotional and psychological support. They would be a name, a recognized organization that I could take to churches, they would funnel money from my supporters to me, and they may be able to assist me with a visa. How great is that?

The downfall is that I will be required to be away from Korea for about another year. I have to do their discipleship training course, which takes five months or so, and then I'll have to continue with my support raising. I encouraged myself by saying any mission organization will require some sort of training and I have to raise money anyway. And using YWAM's name will help me raise money faster.

I should be really happy about this. I should be ecstatic. But it's almost too good to be true. I've been on my own for so long, I've been rejected by churches, organizations and people, can I really trust YWAM?

I sure hope so.