I'm exhausted and I'm not exactly sure why. School has started and I'm sure that's part of the reason, but beyond that....

So I'm going to compile a list of things I do during my week so see if my tiredness is justified.

1. I spend 20 hours a week in Korean class.

2. I do 6 to 15 hours a week of homework a week.

3. I meet with a Korean tutor 8 hours a week.

4. I lead a 2 hour Bible study on Thursdays, which requires at least one hour of prep.

5. I attend/lead a 2 hour ministry meeting on Wednesdays.

6. I spend 5 to 10 hours a week keeping up with emails, blogs and ministry stuff (sometimes this feels way more like work than fun--which is why some of you never hear back from me...). I need to invest more effort in keeping up with my friends and supporters.

7. I spend 2 hours a week writing for a teenage devotional.

8. I spend 8 hours a week commuting to and from school and church on Sundays. This does not including traveling to my tutor's house or going to my favorite coffee shop to study.


So that brings me up to a max of 68 hours a week that I spend doing workish-type things. I've calculated that if I sleep the optimum of 10 hours a night (yeah right), I'm left with 14 hours a day to work with. 14 hours over 5 days equals 70 hours total, or if I include the weekend, 98 hours. So I either have 2 hours or 30 hours a week free. Does that sound like I have a lot of time, or hardly any time?

And I'm only going to get more busy. I'm becoming more involved at church, which is as exciting as it is stressful, and I'm thinking about getting a job. I'm not exactly sure if I should work, seeing as though it is still technically illegal (just as prostitution is "illegal" and yet brothels share fences with police stations). I've had a slew of job offers this week that just keep getting better and better. The most recent offer was from a new "consulting" school whose main purpose was to advise parents on how to get their children into the top US universities. They also offer English classes on the side in order to give these kids the skills to make it. I would be teaching interview skills two hours a week and making $400 a month. That's pretty good teaching money. It would at least pay for rent. God would still have to worry about money for bills, food and my car.... Or, since it's sort of illegal should I continue to trust him for everything? Or is this job part of how he will provide for me?

What to do, what to do?