I should prep for tomorrow. I finally have time... but I don't feel like it.

I was accused by a friend, the other day, of never expressing really how I feel about stuff. He said it's like I do what seems right or honorable in a situation but my real thoughts are hidden.

hidden

I know what he's talking about. With my good friends I'm not all that hidden but I do, at times, strain to express my true feelings about something.

feelings

Sometimes I don't even know how I feel. At the end of the day when people ask me how my day was I honestly say, I don't know, I can't remember. After a few minutes of reflecting on the day-long accumulation of events I figure out how I feel about it all. My feelings, unless they are really strong usually reside in the third layer of my brain; the first layer being dedicated to what I'm doing now, the second layer to what I have to do next, and the third layer to how I feel about it.