The weather is stormy today; a mixture of thunderstorms, pounding rain, beautiful sun breaks and rainbows. The landscape within these volatile shades of weather is illuminated and revealed in all it's moods. It looks different with every darkening of the sky, with every down pour, with every sunbeam. There is an essence that remains the same but a depth that is only exposed with change.

... exposed with change. I am exposed with change. Who I am, who I really am--the core of what I really believe and the philosophies which I truly hold to--are exposed when I am confronted with something outside the norm. When my comfort zone is shaken, when I experience trials or great success, that is when my true character comes out, and that is when I need God to be ever so close to me so that I don't give in to fear, selfishness, frustration or gloating pride.

There are times when the internal battle wages with such ferocity that I cannot withstand it, the internal battle of holding firmly to my values and facing great difficulty or of doing what is easy and reaping temporary comfort. In those times, even if every fiber of my being desires to do what is right, victory only comes when I cling to God. It is only by depending on him for every breath, for every word spoken, for every action taken that I will, together with God, have the strength to be victorious.


An hour of weather outside my office.